Dopamine Reset: A month of degen gaming

It’s been a month since I bought the PS5 and I’ve played several full length games. Gosh time just flew by so quickly after playing console gaming like the good old days but now it feels so degen. Having completed FF7 Remake, It Takes Two and now Baldur’s Gate 3, I feel like I gotta stop cuz all my other areas in life are being compromised.

Most importantly, Hyrox is coming up in two weeks and I haven’t been training hard. Bodybuilding has taken a back seat these few weeks and I’ve not been progressing my physique and body weight toward the 100kg goal.

Now I have to put the PS5 on the back of my mind and prioritize career and fitness cuz this month is gonna be one helluva intense month. How should I do it?

- dopamine reset: no gaming, no social media, no porn and no junk food for a week to focus on lower stimulation but long term rewarding activities 

- gym: get back to 4 sessions a week then progress to 5 sessions including leg workout days

- sleep: prioritize sleep for 9 hours

- eat well: protein focused diet to feel good from within

- move daily: take outdoor walks daily without any phone use

- take cold showers: challenge myself to take cold showers once a day

- calm music: listen to slow and soothing music

- meditation: take moments to reflect and reconnect with my self


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Hyper-masculinity

 How to max out my aesthetics and presence in the bodybuilding and gay muscle scene?

  • Physique and Physical Training
    • Goal: Achieve 100kg
    • Method:
      • Training: Progressive Overload and Hypertrophy Training
      • Setup: 8-12 reps, 4-5 sets, 4-5 exercises
      • Exercises: Focus on the big compound movements
        • Shoulders: Overhead Press
        • Arms: Bicep Curl and Tricep Pressdown
        • Chest: Bench Press
        • Back: Rows
        • Legs: Squats
      • Nutrition: Surplus calories and a healthy diet
      • Supplement: Protein, Creatine, Omega3, Multivitamin
      • Underground: Testosterone, Cialis
      • Rest: Quality 8 hours rest
      • Fat: Stay lean at 10-15% body fat percentage
  • Looksmaxxing
    • Jawline: Enhance jawline and cheekbones
      • Focus on chewing hard foods and reducing body fat
    • Beard: Keep a neatly groomed beard at 20mm trim length
      • Use Minoxidil twice daily
      • Derma Rolling twice weekly
    • Hair: Invest in a good haircut with a nice fade
      • Short, structured, slicked back haircut works
    • Skin: Daily skincare routine at night
      • Aesop In Two Minds Cleanser - Salicylic Acid
      • Aesop Lucent Concentrate - Niacinamide
      • Aesop B & Tea Toner - Panthenol
      • Aesop SPF25 - Sunscreen
  • Attire
    • Gym attire: Stringer tank top with fitted shorts
    • Work attire: Black shirt and Black pants
    • Accessories: Black watch strap, Black framed glasses, Black socks
    • Signature Scent: Aesop Virere, Aesop Hwyl
  • Presence
    • Posture: Sitting and standing upright
    • Tone: Measured and deep tone
    • Movement: Measured and deliberate movements
    • Scene: Attend circuit parties and gay social events for networking
    • Social: Post content on Instagram and other fan-based platforms
    • Compete: Join fitness competitions (Hyrox solo)

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Push on for Bodybuilding

Now that I have been on 500mg of testosterone for a month, I'm starting to have a renewed drive for bodybuilding. It's as though the testosterone pushed my inner potential to a high limit and now I can finally push myself even harder to break the plateau I've been stuck on for so long. I plan to continue with this test cycle for 20 weeks until mid-May. So until then, I am going to go all out to push my physique. 

I have definitely seen some physical improvements since I started in January, as compared to the whole of last year where I was cruising on 250mg-300mg of testosterone and my physique barely changed. So I guess the preach for doing 500mg makes sense I guess?

My weight is now 88kg and I aim to push it upward to 95kg and 100kg even.



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Coming up with a brand idea

I just thought of selling apparels as a hobby on the side and see how that goes. The idea is that there is a growing fitness culture among the gay community, namely the bears and muscle bros and why not set up a brand that I identify with such that people can follow what I enjoy doing - bodybuilding, fitness, and the focus on masculinity.

Brand Name: Bear Beef

Instagram: bearbeefclub

Domain: bearbeef.com


Logo: BEAR BEEF

Keywords: Prime Beef, Muscle Bear, BEEF, BEAR, TESTOSTERONE, Bear Pump, Strong


Brand Story: Targetted towards the gay muscle bear community, camaraderie of men, imbuing the ethos of masculinity in gym culture


Themes: Inclusivity, Strength, Power, Masculinity


Product Line: labelled with BEEF, material cotton

- Gym Wear: Stringer Tank Top, Squat Shorts, Training Shorts, 

- Daily Wear: Tshirt,  Socks, Cap


Blog Content: Bodybuilding tips, Bodybuilding culture, etc

Fitness Coaching: for future consideration




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Kink of my own

I have this kink for myself - that I want to have hyper-masculine traits - muscularity, hairiness and virility - like that of a hairy beast.

How shall I go about to achieve this?

Minoxidil (twice daily) and Derma Rolling (twice weekly) to get the body hairs growing - Full Beard on chin, sideburn, moustache and neckline.

Blast and Cruise cycle through the year at 20 weeks on 10 weeks off. Blast at 400mg and Cruise at 200mg.

Cialis E3D for virile health
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Learning my way home

 With the new house, heading to office and heading back home is a complete new route but surprisingly the travel time is shorter than when I travelled from my old house.

To Office:

Cycle Downhill -> Park bike at bus stop -> 189 -> alight at AYE -> 97 or 963 (work / gym)


To Home:

166 -> alight at Clementi MRT -> 185 or 189 -> Ride bike home (56min)

OR

61 -> Ride bike home (48min)

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Resolutions of 2025

 Its the start of a new year and what a blast it had been the past year. I got PMP certified, I started on TRT, and I moved into a new house. The journey was full of ups and downs but in the end all the matters was that it completed.

I am excited for this year to be a whole new level of exciting as I turn 32. Setting for myself some goals to achieve, I would mainly like to reach 100kg, participate in Hyrox competition, and bring my relationship with Kenneth to the next chapter by getting engaged. These are some exciting achievements to come and it will take effort to work through whatever it takes.


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