I got out of the rut.
I have no idea how it started but looks like the DIM200 supplement did play a part.
When I was feeling down, everything in my head was overwhelming me and making me feel heavy. Now I understand how a mental struggle feels. The external stressors around me have been the same, but my outlook toward the problem feels different. I think it has alot to do with hormones and chemicals in the body affecting how I perceive the stressors.
Past month, when I woke up, I would immediately feel shitty like the world was a dark place and I wanted to escape.
But all of a sudden this week, I feel a joyful glee when starting my day and going to the gym, heading to work, all while the stresses have not changed at all.
I think, all we can do is be grateful and appreciate each moment. Who knows what might happen next.
Sidenote, I am starting on a TRT+ cycle following Levi Conely's dosage for 50+ weeks. Hope it will help me bulk up to my much desired goal of 100kg (having been stuck at 90kg for the past forever).
I've also got to deal with the blood pressure issue. Just saw an article of a sports athlete who died from kidney failure and I realised the importance of keeping BP to below 130/80. Gonna start measuring my BP more proactively.