Coming up with a brand idea

I just thought of selling apparels as a hobby on the side and see how that goes. The idea is that there is a growing fitness culture among the gay community, namely the bears and muscle bros and why not set up a brand that I identify with such that people can follow what I enjoy doing - bodybuilding, fitness, and the focus on masculinity.

Brand Name: Bear Beef

Instagram: bearbeefclub

Domain: bearbeef.com

Logo: BEAR BEEF

Keywords: Prime Beef, Muscle Bear, BEEF, BEAR, TESTOSTERONE, Bear Pump, Strong

Brand Story: Targetted towards the gay muscle bear community, camaraderie of men, imbuing the ethos of masculinity in gym culture

Themes: Inclusivity, Strength, Power, Masculinity

Product Line: labelled with BEEF, material cotton

- Gym Wear: Stringer Tank Top, Squat Shorts, Training Shorts, 

- Daily Wear: Tshirt,  Socks, Cap

Blog Content: Bodybuilding tips, Bodybuilding culture, etc

Fitness Coaching: for future consideration

Kink of my own

I have this kink for myself - that I want to have hyper-masculine traits - muscularity, hairiness and virility - like that of a hairy beast.

How shall I go about to achieve this?

Minoxidil (twice daily) and Derma Rolling (twice weekly) to get the body hairs growing - Full Beard on chin, sideburn, moustache and neckline.

Blast and Cruise cycle through the year at 20 weeks on 10 weeks off. Blast at 400mg and Cruise at 200mg.

Cialis E3D for virile health

Learning my way home

 With the new house, heading to office and heading back home is a complete new route but surprisingly the travel time is shorter than when I travelled from my old house.

To Office:

Cycle Downhill -> Park bike at bus stop -> 189 -> alight at AYE -> 97 or 963 (work / gym)

To Home:

166 -> alight at Clementi MRT -> 185 or 189 -> Ride bike home (56min)

OR

61 -> Ride bike home (48min)

Resolutions of 2025

 Its the start of a new year and what a blast it had been the past year. I got PMP certified, I started on TRT, and I moved into a new house. The journey was full of ups and downs but in the end all the matters was that it completed.

I am excited for this year to be a whole new level of exciting as I turn 32. Setting for myself some goals to achieve, I would mainly like to reach 100kg, participate in Hyrox competition, and bring my relationship with Kenneth to the next chapter by getting engaged. These are some exciting achievements to come and it will take effort to work through whatever it takes.

Testosterone and Life Updates

 I have lost touch from this blog for half a year and wow so much has happened.

Firstly, I have upped the testosterone dosage from 200mg to 300mg per week so as to go on a "Sports TRT" cycle to see how my physique gets better. I have noticed that the main side effect is acne on my face, turning into itchy acne. Other things have been great - libido, and emotional balance. I have topped recently which surprises me since I've been the bottom all these years with weak erections. Oddly enough, I have also lost the urge to bottom because it no longer feels sensual from getting fucked. Maybe its the testosterone that makes me want to fuck instead idk.

Secondly, my partner introduced me to a Bear Pool Party and its my second time at such gay events. In comparison to the one earlier this year's Pink Party, this time round I allowed myself to get more intoxicated and let loose a little, and I was surprised at how much I enjoyed my time. Of course, there were nasty moments where I had to give charity kisses to guys because I was just too drunk to drag myself out of it, and gosh those were some bad kisses. But overall, I met my previous fun buddies and the group I was hanging out with was really nice and welcoming. What a relationship milestone for me and my partner.

Thirdly, my family has purchased an expensive new house, and I have been tasked to be the project manage the whole renovation and move in plan. The situation with my dad has been cordial lately, and I mean we are in better talking terms now that there is a common topic of new house renovations to create conversations for. But I also start to think how fucking boring my father is, because there is nothing exciting or fun about him. This whole project for him feels like a job (I'm not complaining since I get a new house to stay in), but liaising him with the contractors and vendors feels like a chore because my dad just distrusts everyone and puts everyone to such unreasonable terms using his experience and expertise as a benchmark for what people should deliver. Anyway, I'm just serving this job because its for a month but this also gave me an affirmation that I definitely should not work directly with my dad for future projects because he is such an uptight and boring person to work with. I imagine a new house planning process to be more fun in other families.

Now its one months away from moving day and things are getting in place. Excited for staying in a new house very soon!

On a NEW START

Completed reading a book today called A Statin-Free Life. And inside, it talks about methods to live a healthy life without insulin resistance and chronic inflammation which are the key risk factors for most of today's health problems. 

Hence, I want to dive back to the acronym I have always reiterated, as some of the key points were mentioned in this book. After all, these basic fundamentals of our life are almost too obvious but we simply neglect them in our busy lives.

Nutrition

• Three meals a day
• Eat fully and eat slowly
• Include 3 tablespoons of extra virgin olive oil daily
• Eat tree nuts daily
• Eat vegetables
• Oily fish at least three times a week for Omega 3
• AVOID added sugars, high-fructose fruits, packaged carbohydrates, ultra-processed foods

Exercise

• 1-hour exercise 5 days a week
• 50-70% maximum heart rate of intensity
• AVOID sitting or lying down all day

Water

• 2 litres of water a day
• AVOID caffeinated or sugary drinks

Sunlight

• 30 minutes of sun exposure a day
• Apply sunscreen
• AVOID mid-day sunlight

Temperament

• Spend time talking with friends and family
• Have a healthy balance of socialisation and isolation
• AVOID staying in the room using the phone all day long

Air

• Take 10-minute mindful breathing sessions
• Practice conscious nasal breathing 
• AVOID indoor air pollutants and 

Rest

• Full 8 hours of rest
• Stay consistent 9:30am - 5:30am
• AVOID using the phone before bedtime

Toughness

• Keep it going consistently

Masculinity Protocol

Starting my protocol for improving virility and androgenic hair and muscle growth.

- Testosterone (twice a week)

100mg/0.4ml each injection dose for a weekly total dose of 200mg

For muscle growth, libido, mood and mental wellbeing

Frequency: Wed night + Sun morning

- Cialis (twice a week)

Each pill 20mg

For virility and cardiovascularity

Frequency: Wed night + Sun morning

- Derma Rolling (twice a week)

Face and chest at 10 rolls horizontally, vertically, diagonally over all areas

For hair follicle growth and growth factors

Frequency: Wed night + Sun morning

- Minoxidil (twice a day)

Face application 1ml twice a day across all areas

For hair growth

Frequency: Daily morning and night

- Penis Pumping (daily)

Penis pump 3 times of 5 minutes intervals

For penis enlargement

Frequency: Daily night

Testosterone Updates

Looking back, it has been 181 days (6 months) since I took the plunge and got my first testosterone jab from the clinic, and 112 days (3.5 months) since I decided to venture out on my own and take the risk to administer Testosterone via UGL methods. The timeline goes as shown below:

Started on Testosterone

February 2: Nebido - T Undecanoate 1000mg/4ml

[38 days]

March 11: Nebido - T Undecanoate 100mg/4ml

[31 days]

April 11: Hilma Biocare - 62.5mg/0.25ml 

April 14: Hilma Biocare - 62.5mg/0.25ml (125mg per week)

April 17: Hilma Biocare - 75mg/0.3ml

April 21: Hilma Biocare - 75mg/0.3ml (150mg per week)

April 24: Hilma Biocare - 75mg/0.3ml

April 28: Hilma Biocare - 62.5mg/0.25ml (137.5mg per week)

May 1: Hilma Biocare - 75mg/0.3ml

May 5: Hilma Biocare - 75mg/0.3ml (150mg per week)

May 8: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml

May 12: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml (200mg per week)

May 15: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml

May 19: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml (200mg per week)

May 22: Hilma Biocare - 125mg/0.5ml

May 26: Hilma Biocare - 125mg/0.5ml (250mg per week)

May 29: Hilma Biocare - 125mg/0.5ml

June 2: Hilma Biocare - 125mg/0.5ml (250mg per week)

June 5: Hilma Biocare - 125mg/0.5ml

June 9: Hilma Biocare - 125mg/0.5ml (250mg per week)

June 12: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml

June 16: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml (200mg per week)

June 19: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml

June 23: Hilma Biocare - 100mg/0.4ml (200mg per week)

June 26: Zerox Pharma - 100mg/0.4ml

June 30: Zerox Pharma - 100mg/0.4ml (200mg per week)

July 3: Zerox Pharma - 87.5mg/0.35ml

July 7: Zerox Pharma - 87.5mg/0.35ml (175mg per week) 

July 10: Zerox Pharma - 87.5mg/0.35ml

July 14: Zerox Pharma - 87.5mg/0.35ml (175mg per week)

July 17: Zerox Pharma - 87.5mg/0.35ml

July 21: Zerox Pharma - 87.5mg/0.35ml (175mg per week)

July 24: Zerox Pharma - 87.5mg/0.35ml

July 28: Zerox Pharma - 75mg/0.3ml (162.5mg per week)

July 31: Zerox Pharma - 75mg/0.3ml

I tried pumping for the first time

It was scary as hell putting my junk into the pump device. And using the hand pump to squeeze out the liquids time gave me fear as I could feel the suction pulling on my groin. It was such an interesting experience training my junk to superphysiological levels and I am excited to do this every day as part of my self-improvement masculinity journey. So much so that I even bought a 2nd pump right away (HydroExtreme5) to try a fit that was closer to my size.

I bought a Penis Enlargement Pump

I've been deliberating about this for a while. I'm sure many men will feel insecure about their penis size and for me especially I feel even more insecure given that my penis isn't super sensitive to begin with.

Earlier on in my life at 20 years old, I made the impulsive decision to get a circumcision because my foreskin was too tight. Pulling back the skin hurt and this meant that I had a difficult time enjoying sex. Hence, I just went to a doctor and got a circumcision surgery as quickly as possible. There was some trauma due to my penis getting an erection post-surgery and it tore apart the stitches. There was a lot of blood and my penis had some scarring after that. I think this was the reason why my penis became less sensitive to this day, making my erections go away rather quickly.

Sex with my partner and hookups have consisted mainly of me being the bottom but I feel that I enjoy topping as well but I just cannot perform it. Still, unfortunately, my penile issue has resulted in my becoming a bottom. I have to constantly provide physical stimulation or my penis will get soft easily. If foreplay takes too long, or if I take just a little while longer to put on a condom, my penis will go soft and it no longer gets back hard again.

I went on TRT since the start of this year and as much as it has helped me in my emotional wellbeing, physical hypertrophy and androgenic hormonal effects, I have not felt much improvement in my sexual performance when it comes to doing the deed. I do get close to an 80% rate of morning wood occurrence but I don't feel like I have an increased libido, and neither do I feel like my erections are harder or longer lasting.

Hence I decided to purchase my very first penis pump and I went for the Bathmate HydroExtreme Wide Boy 7". I am going to start practising daily 3 rounds of 5 minutes pump sessions and hopefully it will increase sensitivity and length + girth gains.

More updates to come once the HydroExtreme gets shipped over to me!