1. Weight has gained from 90kg to 95kg. Bulking cycle going well towards my ultimate goal of 100kg.
2. Stopped coaching cuz I realised I cannot give a god damn about helping or motivating other people to get their shit to the gym and do a workout. I can advise people but I really dislike having to push people to get things done especially those guys who signed up for my coaching (4 to be exact), were not exactly the motivated types so there was no joy from my end seeing their lack of compliance week to week.
3. Been 3.5 months in on my test cycle of 500mg. 1.5 months to go until Mid-August when the cycle comes to an end.
4. Recent new interest of learning Chinese and I have a good routine going where I make myself go through 1 chinese article on Lianhe Zaobao or related news channels and write down words I don't know and craft a sentence in chinese from it. My Chinese has gone to shit so its about god damn time I get myself back to it. The China trip in March was a wake up call when I felt that I could not communicate properly with Chinese counterparts to express myself even in the simplest of words.
5. Work was abit of a drag previously but I am recently started on designing the revamp of the brand website and then has allowed me to get in my flow state quite well as I really enjoy designing the website. In comparison I really hated dealing with people's shit and liaising on a project I cannot give a fuck about aka the anti-counterfeit project.
6. Socially, I have been reclusive and stayed out of instagram mostly not because I did not want to doomscroll but because there was no joy in doing so, but I find myself being on reddit alot more nowadays reading random shit pots of topics that interest me. I haven't made any new gay friends or straight friends but it seems like theres one or two potential friendships coming up but I have a feeling its going to end up becoming one of those that end up being a fun buddy. Thats the tragedy of gay friendships.
7. Libido doing great, albeit dependence on Viagra is strong. When I take it, I truly feel like a god. Topping feels like a breeze on it.
8. Past few weeks I went on a whole impulsive train of urge to purchase something expensive, started from wanting treadmills in my balcony, then went on to having to have a glass curtain / ziptrak to cover the balcony from rain to protect the treadmill, and then I rejected that idea and considered getting an arcade machine instead but tested it and hated it so went on to the idea of a pinball machine which was exceedingly expensive at SGD17k. Pulled myself out of the impulse dopamine hit, no doubt without incurring a hit on my wallet from spending SGD250 on a stupid toxic PS5 game Dead by Daylight because I wanted only legendary skins but only to realise I suck at the game. Then after all this, I went back full circle to decide not to buy anything and stick to what I have existingly which is to focus on my unfinished Ghost of Yotei game.
What an interesting few months it has been. Next months are gonna be the slogging months to lay low and stay on track for my bodybuilding goal before end of the year comes and the whole holiday mood starts again. THAT IS ALSO BECAUSE GTA VI is coming on November 19, AND TOMORROWLAND THAILAND is happening in Dec, so those are exciting times I am looking forward to.