There is this struggle of deciding between continuing working in the business with my family or get a job out there and paving my own career direction.
If I were to stay and climb the ladder in the family business, will I feel more fulfilled and content with myself? The reason why I am thinking to leave now is because I don't feel that personal growth and fulfilment, to the point that I’m like an empty shell serving the expectations of others than myself. And worse still, I don’t feel any recognition from the very people I’m serving, so even if I rise up the career ladder in my family business, would I feel any better? It’s a difficult choice and one that is further complicated by the strained relationship (or the lack of any) with my dad. Like how we don’t talk at home and he puts up a facade to others like we’re good. I think that’s a key reason why I need to leave. I must.
All these pent up feelings are calling out to me to take action. Just like back then when I had my first break up with a woman and then subsequently a first breakup with a man (funny isn’t it). That drove me to take action in my life to pull myself together and put shit tons of effort into reclaiming my fitness and physique.
I’ve got to take action for myself now, only now it’s for career and personal development.