I am hard again

It has been well two weeks since the last thought and I must say my libido has returned. It is stronger than ever and morning wood is back. 

25mg test per day works wonders for me now. I feel good. 

My only gripe is that I have to pin my butt or my shoulder daily and I'm worried it causes scarring or thickening of the skin.

Honestly, I feel like a beast again, having the urge to breed. Some days it can even become uncomfortable when the pressure builds up too high and its not released. Or when I am sleeping and get a random unsolicited hard on which wakes me up. It feels good not gonna lie but its a different kind of annoyance. 

When I lost my libido for a month last month due to lowering of dose, it was complete numbness and zero appetite for sex at all. I would look at porn or think of sex but there was no reaction in me at all. Now I do get a hard on and I think its a good problem to have.

I am glad that daily test pinning is working for me.

I mean my body dysmorphia is always there but my weight has been remaining the same, if not heavier than before, but I feel like I shrunk a little (in my mind) from my previous mini blast of 300mg per week. Now its 175mg per week.

I initially intended to go on a full blast this year of testosterone but having gone through the illness and bad symptoms in January, I decide that I will stick to daily pins of 25mg for this year to maintain and see how far I can grow from this low dose. If it works, then I am glad I managed to pull through physique transformation and bulk with such a low dose.

Libido is gone

I switched to daily injections because I read that its better to reduce fluctuations by making more frequent injections of lower dose.

My current dosage is 0.1ml per day = 25mg test per day (175mg per week)

Previously when I was doing twice a week injections at 175mg week total, I felt really good but yet now when I lowered it down to daily injections, I feel like my urge for sex and strength of erections is at its ultimate low.

Without blood test I will not be able to identify what the root cause is but I am guessing that the change from twice weekly injections (250mg total weekly) down to daily injections (175mg total weekly) has resulted in my testosterone levels plummeting to a lower level and estradiol still taking some time before it comes down.

I am going to observe for a few more weeks and hope that my primal urge comes back.

I was so into topping previously but now with the lack of erections and libido, I find that I switched my mindset to a more bottom mentality where being the passive receiver feels 'easier'. 

Back when I was hornier, topping interested me more because the breeder mindset gave me a much stronger urge to fuck, while there was no urge to bottom because it felt 'uncomfortable'.

Hopefully things change and I'll get back my primal mode soon.