It might be the magic number 30 or just the self-awareness that I am halfway through my health span (i.e. the highest age with good QOL and free from disease).
But in the last 6 months, I have observed changes in the way I approach life. Just six months ago, I was still playing the computer daily on Elder Scrolls Online, logging my daily quests and watching YouTube videos on how to obtain the seasonable rewards from the game.
Then at the turn of the new year, I took action to revamp my fitness and made the decision to check on my health. That was when TRT happened and it was also this time that I began to change my lifestyle quite drastically.
I started working out in the morning, changing my workout environment and I freed myself from being encapsulated by people who were dreadful about life and had a low drive for the joys that life offers. I made sure to surround myself with people who are driven and exude boldness for a purposeful life.
I was going through a tumultuous time last year, emotionally. It could be that my hormones were just not attuned properly or that my mid-life existential crisis had come up, but I was having deep internal conflicts in my career and family relationships. I was not talking to my dad and I hated him for not acknowledging anything that I do. My career felt stagnant and I was not making any personal progress. I decided to take a step out of my comfort zone and take the six-certificate program to boost my career CV, which just ended a few weeks back with the final and most difficult PMP exam.
Fast forward six months, and I feel really good about myself now. I made the decision to go on TRT to optimise my testosterone levels and to keep my emotions in check. Having stronger willpower, energy and drive to push myself to do greater things, I feel a sense of accomplishment for myself more than ever. The year ahead is still a shroud of uncertainty but I am sure that I am ready to take the leap of faith. I feel powerful in my endeavours for fitness, in my career opportunities, in my mindset and in the relationships that I nurture with me.
Just earlier last week, I spontaneously agreed to go for a run with my manager without making any plans for it. He told me he was going to run and asked if I wanted to join, and voila we went ahead for a run in the nature park. This experience got me thinking about how we should just seize an opportunity when it arises and just go for it. Don't overthink things. I observe that men with stronger masculine energy portray this behaviour of carpe diem. Go for it, seize the day and make the best out of what comes out of it. After the run, I felt so good, even though it was just a simple run, but deep down, the sense of accomplishment for pushing through the effortful activity and enjoying time with good camaraderie, made the experience feel purposeful and meaningful.